Over the past few days I have been in a huge burst of anxiety driven disorder.

I have realized that my mind and body have fallen out of sync with one another.

My mind is compelled to do wondrous things, it remains constantly active. In contrast, my body has been enthralled into a fit of lethargy. It sleeps mostly, and when it arises, it appears to be a slump that merely drags itself from here to there. My mind has such bright, brilliant ideas, but my body simply refuses to fulfill them. How will I overcome this dilemma? I cannot possibly allow my body, to conquer my mind. I also have not been taking into account my spirit, which is what I believe is the true root of the problem. It seems to have gone AWOL and without it... well I am stuck in a rut.

Anyway, at the moment I am sitting here with a plate full of delicious and warm garlicky potatoes.

It has been a while since I have felt this calm. I also realized that a huge factor to my anxiety has been been my humble little room, which is now far from humble or little for that matter. I wish I had photos of my past dwelling, maybe I could find comfort within them. Alas, I cannot go back to my quite little corner and I must embrace my new space and do my best to make it as cozy as possible.

I suppose I should start by getting off of this computer, and doing rather than thinking or daydreaming of it being done. I probably shouldn't have had all of those potatoes for myself either.

-Mo.